. her life - craziime.blogspot.com

2007-12-21T02:17:00.000+08:00

Im not using blogger anymore because Im not using blogger anymore. Hahahaha. Ask me for my new blog address. Ask me ask me la.

With Love,
kukuass

2007-12-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

Far east plaza w khailoon, her sis, gektheng and me. funny day. bought PROM dress. not heels, handy baggy, earrings ................ yet. mum is paying for everything. so im gg to pay for my nails? haha. i want to do my nails...... anyone???? not hair. hee. it rained so heavily and w were drencheddddddddddddd. and a kind auntie shared her umbrellaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa with me cos i was stucked before i can cross the road to my block. shes so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. mum bring me for facial on thursday. YAYYYYYYYYYYY. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee to typeeeeeeeeeeeee like thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. bought contacts today. monthly oneee. haven try yet. cant wait for PROM..

sweets.

2007-12-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

my 妹妹 drew this for me few months ago and i thought it was so pretty.is it? yes yes i repainted my hair and i think its still not very obvious though. nvm its nicer to be more natural.

say cheese! alfred's so cute la! im who he calls 老姐. i so miss him so i've decided! i will go back band often so i can see his adorable CUTE-licious face and cheryl and guin and charissa!! kokkeong, alfred is mine too!

2007-12-07T01:49:00.000+08:00

ok im so lazy so i decided to record my memories all at once. these are thoughts that i can rmb so im writing them down.

here it goes.

12 November 2007
YAYS! O level has finally ended with a crashing of cymbals! ok whatever am i talking about? im too delighted! just too! this means more band and i can get to see the kiddos! BAND CAMP: 12-14 nov. CLASS CHALET:13-16 nov. oh bother. i can only go band camp for 1st and 2nd day then off to chalet.

16 November 2007
Back from camp and chalet. well firstly.. i got 20 over mosquito bites on my left leg! thats not including all my other limbs and body. so itchy. *scratch scratch scratch* yawns.. so exhausted. practically didnt slp on the last day of chalet and it feels terrible cos i miss bf. boohoo. i love 16.

23 November 2007
went to repair my phone at suntec nokia repair centre because my camera button spoil. i only got to realise it like 1+ month ago? and lucky still under waranty. i also realised that my phone was bought on the 16 december 2006. guess what? thats bfs birthday!such an coincidence. and i only realised this 2 months ago ._. grace and bf accompanied me. how nice of them. MUACKS for you!! i think their service is efficient and the operator at the information counter is damn polite. cos i dialled the centre a few days later to ask about my phone and she is so helpful. ya and watched enchanted at cineleisure with grace, dorothy, elaine and cx. cx was feeling unwell but he still watched the movie with me cos in the first place he didnt want but i persuade and persuade and persuade until he agree. rofl. he didnt regret watching the movie COS its super nice lor. I love the movie! its hilarious and NICE la. i think singapore should do fairytale films too cos itll be effing popular! i miss my phone..

30 November 2007
finally collected my phone. im so so .. HAPPY i nearly teared and roll on the ground for 10 metres and jumping till my vomit out my lungs. a bit exaggeratted? lol. cx accompanied me. i love him! and i dislike walking to the care centre cos the distance is so long long long. was busy last few days with band practices due to upcoming concert which is our first concert, Inspiration I. im so eager and looking forward to the concert!

2 December 2007
Inspiration I. was a success. Alfred did his solo well! we were all so relieved and smiled grins from ear to ear(oh my then how are we gg to play our instruments?). must be God helping us. thank you Lord! all the solos went quite smoothly and WOW! thank you mummy and huishan and aunt and sheryl and my darling grandmother for supporting me and huini. very much appreciated! and jazzrel the shortie came too!! _opps..

6 December 2007
was in malaysia for 3 days: 3, 4 and 5. listen. i didnt go there to play. my grandmother, aunt and my family went. i just love sitting in the car for long hours cos it just so nice. went grandmothers house, those kampong ones but not those tattered and made of wood ones, (which is empty vos we all live in singapore) to do some painting of the external walls. saw so so so many weird insects and bugs which are rather disgusting though.. the house is 20+ years old and built by my grandfather and grandmother. life is tough then.
speaking of painting, i am expressionless like this --> ._. or worse like this =.- my dad was on the ladder painting the upper wall with a roller brush while i was below. i dont know how he did it but SPLAT! the brush came out and fall right beside me. guess what. the next thing that i knew was hearing burstsssSSSSSS of laughterSSSS! my grandmother cant stop laughing at the scene while i sat down there as if i had just woken up from a coma. -.= lucky never fall on my head if not i dont need dye hair cos i can get it free and GREEN somemore.. yuck.

2007-11-08T01:42:00.000+08:00

O level ended? left chemistry and physics paper 1 so its like over. (: guinevere and cheryl worry more than i do for my Os. lol. and charissa the auntie too. they keep asking me to study but i just missed them too much i have to go band to see them. hoho. OOOOO. band did improved and i liked their sock hop tonight with the actions. WOW. they are loud. we did this song too when im in sec2 also for open house.

i has this dream 3 days ago and it is nice. then somehow i woke up and suddenly realised something misfortunate, terrible. its not because of the dream that i realised this truth. band camp and class chalet clashed with the date! band camp is on 12, 13, and 14. chalet is on 13, 14 and 15. that means i can only go camp until the 2nd day then rush over to chalet after that. is it a good idea? i dont want to miss out band camp and chalet but no choice... -sniffs-
ok i cant wait for band concert on 2 dec at SP auditorium tickets at $10. everyone is suppose to sell 5 but mslai told my sis that we can share the tickets. so me and her only need to sell 5 tickets one person sell 2.5 tickets. ya. and i cant wait for clar outing or ~~barbie~~BBQ. YES. finally i can play.

my patience has got a limit like everyone else and i just cant help but hate some peoples attitude and actions. they just dont think before they act. its suppose to be normal to think before you act right? maybe some just dont have the brains to do so? some people just.. (how to say..) for instance, you know you are being irritating and you continue to do so which really drive people to their graves. is taking your phone and walking in front of people and talking on the phone saying mushy stuffssss and intentionally letting people eavesdrop the conversation.. maybe i should say wanting us to hear the conversation of ~~'i miss you leh' and 'where do i meet you later' and 'what are you doing'~~ a thing you are very proud of? trying to show off how well you can flirt? sorry but i cant stand it. i guess some people just dont understand human language when i say 'dont disturb my sis'. i accused you?! anything. i dont like to hear your crap. i chose not to but you 'insisted' throwing those useless informations into my brain using up my memory. i also cant stand people who only know how to say but puts no action. because you just stand there ordering us around while you complain. please know what status you are in first la. its not nice and very rude. always trying to act 'BIG' and 'BIG BIG' but what did you do? did you help? shake shake shake. turn turn turn. sad.

2007-10-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

25 more days till Chemistry and Physics P1.
18 more days till SS Paper.
15 more days till Physics P2.
13 more days till Chinese Paper.
12 more days till Emaths P2.
11 more days till Emaths P1 and English Paper.
8 more days till History Elective Paper.
6 more days till Chemistry P2.
5 more sayd till Amaths P2.
4 more days till Amaths P1.

WOW. its like so fast. it means O levels is ending! the feeling of nervousness and excitement kept going through my head and body in non-stop mode; one moment im nervous, another moment im excited(cos Os finally ending! ok it haven even started.).

i was doing Amaths Paper at first floor bench near homecon kitchen today when miss lai saw me and the first thing she did was smiled at me and did the action on fingers runnning on a clarinet while walking. (triple-tasking!o.o) and she said: 没有带instrument回家practise啊?

is miss lai sleepwalking or what huh?

i was frightened by her! rather shocked. then she continued: need practise ma need the skill for concert..
oh i see..

2007-10-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

hey you listen up, QiJie is my bro! muahaha. ok im crazy. now, i realised i don't know his surname. hey how can it be?? but he is officially my bro today and im officially his sis today! (althought someone is quite unhappy about it. sorry dear.)

i miss my friends. graduation is a cruel thing. i hate you graduation!

am i really crazy?

yuchun dialled me just now saying tmr meeting 0630 at mac. reason is to catch sch's flagraising ceremony. its abit early though. seriously i really miss going to school because we do not need to attend school until O levels. ><
TADA!

2007-08-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

Yprelims! ><

Yhe held me today.. again..
happiness.

Y3 more days to my big day.

2007-08-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/841084

my homework has been accumulating and i can't finish them. if only there are more than 24 hours a day; but its like also not a very nice thing as that means school will be longer. definitely. teachers will be giving more work. thats just how it works and theres no escaping. we students are somehow treated as 'homework' machines and some teachers just merely marked the homework by writing a 'seen'. i agree its 'hard' because they have to write the word 40 over times over and over again. isn't it? just who is the person who created this O level exam? because this O thing can drive one to his extreme or even worse though. whatever it is, why do we have to have exams? it has sort of transformed over the years to be some sort of a 'competition' in school. i realised sometimes i spent too much time on irrelevant or unnecessary stuffs in turn that i can't finish my homework and then i regret for wasting the precious time. but my homework is multiplying faster than micro organisms, how am i capable of finishing so much? 1+1=2. if only life is as simple as ABC.

2007-07-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

grr.. come near me and i'll gobble you up! i love bones! RAH!!

2007-07-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

lessons have been driving me crazy! like how the hell can anyone take it la, with lessons from morning 7.30 to 4.30 EVERYDAY. i dont even have time to complete my homework how to revise? papers papers and more revision papers. how 'great' can life be.
i've got like so many things i need and want to buy.

phone memory card
shoulder and sling bag
wallet
presents
sweets and chocolates
and blar blar blar

and .. i've got not enough to buy all that. have to save for so long. i only manage to save $30 in 3 weeks. tian ar.. (who going for prom night?)

2007-07-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

i feel so accomplished today. me and my sisters actually went to the supermarket to buy the groceries for my mother! well and i anyhow choose the vegetables including the fish. this is the first time i buy fish on my own la. after that i have like this fishy smell which is so YUCKY. that was in the morning. and there were so many people mostly aunties and they were like grabbing for vegetables like there will be no more left in the world. we spent like 1 and a 1/2 hr there and we bought things or i should say food that is out of the shopping list. opps! anw i think its fun though. i was quite helpless then too. hah. then at about 5 went to library with my youngest sister. i only followed her there while she choose her bks. the library was very icy cold.. then then then went home and the bus is very squeezy.. and im so squeezed im now dried. T.T so sad. im more flatter now. not forgetting my sister who suffered the same fate. but overall i think its a fruitful day for me cos i saw the smile of my youngest sister and i feel so happy about it. i can see that she enjoys going out with me la. shes more 乖 than me.

i love her.

hah.

i think this looks nicer. :T

2007-07-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

woo~ today is the second friday the 13^th in 2007. and i'm going to walk under ladders, step on cracks and stare at black cats!!
FLAG DAY: our class was allocated to somerset. seems like an ideal location but the people there were all moving at fast paces so hard to get donations.. ); so me and khailoon kept changing bags with each other . anw me and khailoon got a free movie ticket. its like this: it was youth day the next day and a carnival was held at *scape to celebrate this day and there were teenagers giving these postcards that you can redeem for movie tickets. i was like 'woah!' and i got a balloon from the girl who distributed the postcards. lovely orange balloon that flies. ^^ then went back with calista, jaqueline, yanto and gang and calista actually gave obe of her balloons to a young boy! WOW calista! hah. but her good deeds returned her nothing cos her balloon flew up up and UP and away into the sky!

AS for today we ran 2.4 for napfa but i only ran 3 rounds cos mrteo says we can warm up first cos long time nv run. anw 3 rounds already took me 10mins25s!! calista was not ~~abnormal~~ normal during recess after the run.. haha. kena possessed?! but i still love her!
andandand kokleong damn funny. always got caught for speaking the censored words like today! i was laughing like nobody's business! when he said ****you ms koh coincidentally was just in front of him and she heard it. wah the scene very funny. HAHAHAHA.
today was first lesson of tuition for chemistry. quite ok lor. but happy to crap with michelle and calista. and i saw my primary school mate at the tuition centre. (;
well tmr going yanto's house after school watch movie(dunno what movie la) and i love his house man. its very nice, even the toilet and the toilet paper. lol.

wanted to write more but i wanna slp cos im too tired and not getting enough sleep! and i kept slping in class! opps! lucky got calista wake me up cos she sits beside me but pls don't poke me darling!! yuan yuan! till then!

2007-06-27T22:18:00.000+08:00

i'm super angry!!! IDIOT!

2007-06-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

Alfie - Lily Allen

cute song! had such a hard time on history brochure and still working on it(with kendrik's help)! he's such a nice guy.. i'm now left with physics TYS, english essay(SIAN!) and the brochure. off to malaysia tomorrow morning!! BYE everyone! don't miss me too much!!

i don't understand you
it's not how it used to be again
i have no idea what to do
or should it just come to an ending??

2007-06-20T02:31:00.000+08:00

bOO!
i'm talking on the phone now! wEE~
i can't say the word 'no' very fast! argh!
fine i give up!

RAHHH! i love yellow!

2007-06-17T01:01:00.000+08:00

so Adorable
so Beautiful
so Cute
so Dangerous
so Elegant
so Fuhua
so GUIN!!Y(she asked me to change it! LOL!)
so HUISHI
so Ironic
so Jericho
so Kind of lame
so Loved
so Mean
so Nasty
so Original
so Pampered
so Qqq
so Ragged
so Silly
so Toad
so U..
so Valentine
so Whatever
so Xtreme
so Yummy
so Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

lalala~ im bored..
about the girl in my previous entry.. she's my sister!! cute right?!?! anw i miss all band juniors including alfred, charissa, cheryl, guin, jiajun, mrbean.., aiyin, magdelene, eikseng, and (i dun quite know the rest), and the 2 SLs xiaoqian and alvintan!! i miss them, the SILLY ones.. silly x3.. more photos next time!!

i will follow you.

2007-06-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello hello. thats 1o times! cos today is the 10th june. and i still have one mountain of uncompleted homework ); very long since i touched them. im going to finish all maths papers by tomorrow and i know i can do it! hahaha. cos i only left a few questions.. life has been funny these few days but i don't know about the next few. okay what am i talking about? and and and i miss BAND!! im going back band next next monday for sure! cos i just can't resist the temptation.. of music.. you know.. and i know my wonderful and lovely clarinet misses me too.. not forgetting the kids! not baby goats but the clarinet section. obvious. weE~

shes tryin to eat me. i said: ARGh!

and she said: YUMMY!

lalalalalalala..

adorable? beautiful? cute? make a guess.

the ans will be revealed in the next entry. teeHEE~

2007-06-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

His cheeseburger - VeggieTales

He said to her, I'd like a cheese burger...
and I might like a milk shake as well.
She said to him, I can't give you either.
And he said, isn't this Burger Bell??
She said, Yes it is, but were closed now.
but we open tomorrow at 10?
He said, I am extremely hungry,
but I guess I can wait until then.
Cause you're His cheeseburger
His yummy cheeseburger
He'll wait for you, yeah,
He'll wait for you,
Oh, you are his cheeseburger
His tasty cheeseburger
He'll wait for you.
Oh, he will wait for you.
He stayed at the drive-thru till sunrise.
He may have dozed off once or twice.
When he spotted a billboard for Denny's--
"Bacon and Eggs for half price!"
How could he resist such and offer?
He really needed something to munch.
Cheeseburger please do not get angry.
He'll eat and be back here for lunch!
Cause you're His cheeseburger
His precious cheeseburger
Be back for you.
He'll be back for you.
Won't be so long cheeseburger!
Oh, lovely cheeseburger!
Be back for you.
Oh, He'll be back for you.
Cause he loves you cheeseburger with all his heart!
And there ain`t nothin` gonna tear you two-oo apart!
And if the world suddenly ran out of cheese,
He would get down on his hands and knees
to see if someone accidentally dropped some cheese in the dirt!
And he would wash it off for you!
Wipe it off for you
Clean that dirty cheese off just for you...
You are His cheeseburger!

doesn't this look like a cheeseburger?(the colour of the words) YUMMY!

2007-06-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

why everyone say i acting cute? okay la not everyone only alfred, someone, and.. and.. not that many after all. i'm not acting cute. i'm originally cute(",) like me!

look at me. look at me.
see how fast i grow, see how fast i grow.
so tall so smart i can grow .
delicious creamy grow grow grow.
i love grow. ♡
i'm tall, i'm smart, i drink grow.
delicious creamy grow grow grow
we love grow, we love grow, we love grow!

that was so random. haha. suddenly thought of that. anw i want testimonials! any kind souls out there want to write for me? its for the graduating thing. teachers are to compile testis we wrote ourselves for ourselves and by friends. mrchia = cute! he told us he going hk for holidays and asked us not to miss him so much. my god i got 5 mosqito bites all over my legs. poor legs. so itchy.

veggietales is loves. ღ
guin - sleepy toad. ღ
boohoo.. i'm happy..ღ

2007-06-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

i'm at yanto's house. there's me, FANTAkok(opps!) and yanto of course. kokleong told me he want come his house to do hw and what's he doing now?? he's playing now. with yanto. again. what has the world become? and and and kok is dumb. ok sorry. he was using the com and he got screwed up with microsoft word!! hah. and he was trying yo scare me when he came to fetch me to yanto's house when i already saw him 2 blocks away which is from the 1st floor of my block. how dumb can he get? well i know he knows that he knows i'm joking so he won't mind la, hor FANTAkok? opps x2! thats still ok. but when he was doing the history IT assignment he was searching pictures in the net and i saw something that i ~~should not see~~ and its all thanks to HIM. grr..
anw.. they bully me!! i want to cry already. i'm innocent ok. *pokes* why keep saying me and him leh. very fun? can get money? if can i don't mind la. haha. well well well.

the band played noah's ark today! i want play! i want! miss samantha chong is love <3! i miss her and all the juniors+sec1s! i feel like going band this sat. anyone?

i'm happy with what i get now.
'too much of a good thing is not a good thing'
it makes sense now..

2007-06-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

i've got so many things i want to blog about but i've just got no time. i need a timetable to make time for studies and play... and BAND! haha. i've just got so many uncompleted tasks. all thanks to my poor time management. well well. 24 hours a day is just not enough for many ppl i guess. it must be true. i'm tired. yawns..

i want more love from you.
i want to feel pampered by you.
i want you all by myself.
i want you to hug me.
i want you to kiss me.
i want you to stay beside me.
i want i want i want.
is this too much i have asked of you??

2007-05-29T01:00:00.000+08:00

ok. this is not huishi but HUISHI. i have not been myself for days. huishi has been taken away by some evil ~~spirits.~~ i've got some kind of mixed feelings recently and i seriously don't understand why. strange. worst is: i don't even know the reasons why i'm so stressed up. i don't want to live this life. crying has become a habit which i can't control and stop. i'm just plain stupid and brainless (maybe). i was munching my chocolates and suddenly i have a sudden urge to cry and the tears just flowed down my cheeks. the pain and sad is like coming from the very inside of me, my soul. i feel nothing on the outside when i cry, no sad feelings, no reasons to cry. but i just feel a strong sadness, disappointment and some sort of anger inside me. its not me crying, but the true me. i've hurt myself deeply. i so want to escape or am i already escaping? i don't know about it either. i will never forget that experience, that just 3mins. i tried reflecting on myself and i could not do it. i'm too much of a disappointment.

he has been acting strange. have i done anything wrong?? he claimed every word he said is true and will never lie to me. "too much of a good thing may not be that good though". i believe in whatever you said. am i just avoiding or what? or is it just an act of my ~~stupidity~~? i've had enough of it and i'm just too indecisive. i wish you could stay like the 'you :)' a few days/weeks ago. is this too much that i've asked of you? );

2007-05-05T01:06:00.000+08:00

this was taken after the mus'art concert at suntec.i was forced by guin to take this photo with her. x(
tammie also forced me to take photo with her. boohoo~
and cheryl posted it in her blog too!
juniors bullying seniors. see la where's the descipline? haha
i'm nice.

-
Today went to jp to buy present for edward with junjie, kendrik, chongxiang, khailoon and gektheng. but first we decided to throw all our stuffs at cx's house. on our way there we 'kind of' sabo jj and gt by putting them together..? well we almost missed the stop. the few of us thought of so many freaking ideas about what to give edward and haha i nearly die of laughing. going into the same shops again and again and that was fun! we went round and round the place for hours and finally decided on a shirt -.-. my legs were so painful by then.

my mum saw this and told me so i decided to take a picture of it. but i was too SLOW so in the end the beautiful scenery ended up like this.

taken on o4/05/07, 7:30:40 PM - jurong residential

i'm afraid of 'O' levels! how prepared m i?
i miss band practices! fuhua alumni band?
all the crazy and silly things guin and cheryl do makes me laugh!
do you mean everything you say? do you really love me?

just some random thoughts*

Zzzzzzzz

2007-02-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

tiring. i feel so tired this few days, feel like sleeping all the time. haha. today was the official launching of T.H.E cabin (but i still liked to call it 'the container'). it is something so small but yet so big; the cabin is small but needed minister to open it. LOL. woke up at 5.30am and reach school at about 7am when st called and said is 7.30 fall in -.-. anyway after performing we had band practice till 11.30+am then went to jjc's love fiesta. we [weikiat, shitian, me, xiaoqian, alvin, guin, cheryl, charissa, jiajun, weishen, alfred, siewfang, qingtong, yongxiang, kaiqin, jiabo, and 3 sec1s(hope i didn't miss out anyone)] went for a ride: painful and heart-poping. painful because the seat was too BIG and loose then the thin ones suffered. haha no offence. i was flying off the seat and my arms hurt due to the ________ . and cheryl cried. i guess she was just shocked. then out of no where chongxiang and qinghui appeared and joined us. (:

the haunted house by yumin's class scared my head off. though it is not very scary after all i felt so scared when inside and i had to grab kaiqin. haha. cos shitian grabbed jiajun and charissa pulled shitian.

and this is the cake i bought for my sis for her birthday today. looks delicious? haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

O.O

2007-01-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

STUDY STUDY STUDY. MUST ~~CONCENTRATE~~.....? BAND - sectionals is a must. must work real hard for SYF. and i MUST not drop my handphone againagainagain. ARGHhhhhhh. ............... i dunno what i'm doing.. -.-

brr ~

2007-01-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

it was like raining the whole day today. it was damn COLD. i was so busy in the morning thinking about where to get shades for tmr and me and amanda went around looking for clar juniors, asking them if they got their shades. in the end me, amanda, shitian, jingwen, meiyin, alvin, jason, brenda and huanghao went to buy shades nearby after school. came back to school still raining. then went to help draw posters for tmr's cca display. so fun. we draw draw and draw. all so nice and creative. haha (x after that went around school pasting the posters and we hid something in band office. guess? i don't want tell haha. bleah. tadas. night everyone on the planet earth!

2007-01-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

feeling kind of tired these few days. the pain is killing me for days. lessons became so boring for me. friends drifting further away from me. parents nagging at me. relatives quarelling with each other. what has the world become?! i can't believe it. #(&%$@&^=(*&)@!

today first period was maths and we got scolded by mrchia. after recess 2 periods also got scolded. -.-. and i found out that he said sort of the same thing to 4e3 and 4e5. haiis no creativity. opps. but our class got scolded worse, maybe cause we are his form class. well well.. i think locus or loci is quite easy and fun cause can draw. haha.

anw band practices nowadays are really lousy. i must say our playing is no good at all. not even silver standard. this sat there is cca display for sec1s and need shades. i am so confused now and so don't know what to do la. shall not elaborate. this sun sp concert at 5 i am sure those going will have a great time again like we always do; playing on the journey, listening great music together.

meow~

greeny greenish green~

2006-12-10T15:10:00.000+08:00

well well i just saw a green grasshopper
at my doorstep and its really GREEN!!
i'm so scared i've now closed the door BANG!
the day before ytd was a praying mantis
today a grasshopper.. eww~
then the day after tmr will it be a green dragonfly?!?!
wow szeting will be visiting me ya..
well done lor bully me
later going SAF concert at esplanade
don't know what time i'll reach home later
sure is late late late ....

meowW~ yiqi looks great when she smiles
yiqi cheer up~

i got to admit i really am missing you

thinking of you every minute and second

<3<3

BAND CAMP

2006-12-07T21:04:00.000+08:00

day 1:
reported at 8am band prac played set piece, jericho, chritmas songs
and had lunch with group qingtong was group leader
asykin (dunno spelling) assistant
members me yeele alfred vannie qiyu and xunyan
and sadly im the only sec3 in the grp and also the only clarinetist *sobS*
back from lunch and sectionals then its GAMES TIME!
first game: chicken eagle superman; first time playing and it was fun
natalielee was a COMMITTED OFFENDER
cos she lost 4 out of 5 games and was forfeited
she so ke lian haha
next game was concentration and it goes likes this
ti ti ti ti ti teh teh teh teh teh ti ti teh teh
hehehe damn fun then wash up; dinner
and we watched 'cars' which i watched b4 already
sucking the candy mslai gave while watching
lights off!!
day2:
happy birthday winnie
fall in at 6.30 am went for morning jog at jurong connector
we were supposed to listen to how the nature works as mr lim said so
then we have to run 2 rounds of the connector
its like so long and forever not ending la *pathetic.............
heard from boys that weewu slepttalkked
and he said wo shi ren haha
had breakfast which was sponsered by qt
after that was band prac ms chong said we looked so dead
i agree too hehe
- l u n c h in sch -
GAME TIME AGAIN!! all i can say about SPS butt is..
fun fun and FUN
the first round i won all the way haha
captains ball was not fun maybe cos 2 grps VS 2 grps
that means 32 ppl snatching 1 ball diao so pathetic right
treasure hunt was tiring though
it was very fun and kokkeong, jeslyn,winnie
they put in a lot of effort doing this hunt
after that dance mrlim sang for us so sweet and and romantic he also danced
lastly ms agnes chan danced so SEXY
bedtime~
day3:
i was already so tired and i look so dead
we had a heavy breakfast; had an hour of free time YAYS
meantime we went ava rm and play CONCENTRATION
drills are always not fun boring boring boring
then was bowling; back to sch we had our scrumptious buffet
wow i ate till my stomach nearly burst
and cute alfred helped me refill my drink
but he also throw a small cake of his in my plate
hehe he is so so so cute!! >.< i love him cos hes so cute!!
haha his cuteness has killed me then it was time for the results
our grp emerged as 3rd and it was a tie with grp 6
it rained when we were about to go home
is it a sign that we shld stay for another day?!
haha that would be most incredibly FUN!
haha i'm dreaming.. lalala
thanks winnie kokkeong and many others
for organising this wonderful BAND CAMP

a praying mantis entered my house just now
it was so big hahahahaha
tadas`

woolala~

2006-12-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

7 and a half hours to band camp
till then bye everyone
don't miss me too much ya
hahahahahahahahahaha
nights all.. beams*
tadas` (:

sucky yesterday

2006-12-02T11:51:00.000+08:00

what a sucky day yesterday was
i thought this year's washing day would be ~~fun~~
but it turn out to be terrible
woodwinds were supposed to clean band office and band store
but my section were all cleaning instruments
only me left to do washing with others
yiling and i were so frustrated
cos we were the ones sweeping the floor
we went to borrow vacuum cleaner as mslai say so
went office but the lady say theres no vc there
then asked mrgovind and he said it was not returned
went canteen to find sch cleaner
in the end we only borrowed another sweep -.-
and the dust in band store like forever can't sweep finish
we sweeped like hell and after that i realised sth..
THE DUSTPAN HAS CRACKS!! no wonder
and junior being rude to senior
i'm sweeping the floor and you want to mop the floor?!
trying to be s____?
have some common sense
can't wait till the sweeping is done
what kind of attitude is this?!?!
misslai did some changes to the band store too
now we have our own cabinet to keep our clarinet
it was moved from the band office
and it has 8 slots for 6 prestige clars and 2 RCs
and oboe was stacked on one of the clars??

mum dad and small sis went mlysia today morn at 6am
and they will only be coming back on monday i guess
now i'm alone at home cos younger sis went sch overnight
and she won't be coming home till sunday
i hope i'll not be eaten up by ghosts tonight.. lalala

2006-09-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired now..
yawn.. -.-
A maths remedial and band tmr
shall update about the Inaugural Concert
of the Band Directors' Association Wind Orchestra
and the sleep over in jes house another day

nights all!
*beams(:

2006-08-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

some neoprints we took

after celebrating baby's birthday

hope she had a great birthday this yr

with us..

shan't really say much

really don't have the mood

i just don't feel happy

and sometimes i had to force that smile out

i see a change in me

losing my temper at home easily

and always cannot talk to my mum 'good-ly'

may i too difficult to satisfy?

lets clap for the birthday girl!! woOts!
grace.baby.me
woW! 2 beautiful princesses..
frenz. (:

tmr having sectionals

fri too

and celebrating misslai's birthday tmr

sure going to have a great time

theres an instructor coming on sat

paid by misstan all by herself

coaching us on noah's ark

flutes and us

gonna work hard for next years' syf

got to get gold to go to japan

and its free mind you FOC

of course not sponsered by our sch

but japan

got to get gold this time

last syf im going

die die also have to

looking forward to the day.. <3

2006-07-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

today went to huiting hse
all i can say is
fun fun and fun!!
we prepared the food for next tuesday cip
will be going to golden willow with 3b
entertain the old folks
and i'm in the refreshments section
we made jelly with fruits inside
and choco conflakes
i helped mostly in the jelly
then we do and do and do
then dunno what happened
the melted chocolate hardened
after we added hot milk to it
we were all panicking
quickly add water but no use
but at last kean yong saved our chocolate
made such a big mess in huiting's kitchen
this goes without saying
but we did help to clean up (:
had so much fun
spent about 5 hours there
and we completed everything
yayy!!
and i didn't know that kean yong was so good in chocolates!!
***************************
`` camaraderie _
-- mutual trust and friendship
a feeling of friendship and trust
among people who work or
spend a lot of time together
just the right word to describe 2c'o5
don't you agree with me?
i miss those days..
and those memories shall live within me
till the day i die
2c'o5 rawks!
i just can't stop loving you the moment i see you
even when you are not here
you live in me
i just can't stop thinking of you.. <3

2006-07-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

3d`o6 rawks!!
today as we have promised mr chia
we wore our ethnic costume to sch
except for 2 -.-
we took so many pictures today
and is the whole class take together
fun mann!
we took in so many places too
near the spiral staircase..
hall..
the stonebench at the classes there..
and also outside the staffroom..
haha
this is the first time in one day
i took so many photos
woahh...
and i think mr chia also very happy today
cos we all participated
just hope that he gets well soon
cos we really need him
(>.<)

****************************

what am i thinking?
maybe i have done many irreversible wrong decisions
and sometimes i really regrets
no matter in whatever
i can nv do anything right
and i can't do anything to help others
i can't do anything to help the clarinet section
since i'm not even good myself
i'm so afraid..
i don't dare to think too much
and i always don't get credits for what i have done
is this what i should get?
i missed those times
when i have a friend to listen to me
talk to me
and give me advices
nvm
i have been thinking too much i guess
i believe in fate
and i think God will help me in whichever ways
i know He will
jes has been asking me to update
so i update lor. haha
i
and i love him so..
love
missed him <3..
u

2006-07-08T15:53:00.000+08:00

phew~
back from camp..
the sec3 camp is damn fun la
not like sec2 de, so military.
1st day:
reach there in the morning
put our things in our huts
morning was quite boring la
cos was all the briefings
thinking of group name and cheer
and also design group flag
our group was d-8 and read as 'dead'
nothing much
then was lunch
this is the first time
that i am having a meal so difficult-ly
cos we were suppose to shout a cheer
and if not loud enough cannot eat
>.<
then proceeded on to activities
first was zipline and absailing thing
after that was preparation for campfire
we did most preparation in the first day
we later went to try out the high elements
the one with many wooden planks which look like swings
then went bathe
- d i n n e r -
after dinner is night walk
we were blindfolded
hands on friend's shoulder
we walk and followed
on the way we were like poked
by 'things' haha
2nd day:
- b r e a k f a s t -
it rained slightly
then carried on with the low wall and the high wall thing
and also the tall pole with the tire
then was the nitro don't know what
we were so funny la
ppl use shoe laces and tie to a shoe
then throw the shoe to pull the rope
you know what we did?!
we uuse chair to throw at the rope
then i swing back -.-
- l u n c h -
hahaha
it was nature rumble time
woOts`
but before that we had a casualty challenge
then it was mud time!!
we were forced to go into the mud
everyone must get dirty
played and played like nobody's buisness
after that was kayaking
i was paired up with kokleong
cos he don't know how to swim
haha
- d i n n e r -
campfire time!!
its was the highlight of the camp
and i simply love and enjoyed it
we sang camp songs..
cheered and all sorts of fun stuffs!
it was definitely screaming fun
CrazZii MoNkeY!! woO~!
just to think that we were going to apart from our instrutors
we all just couldn't help crying
finally the last day..
- b r e a k f a s t -
cleaning up time!
our group was assigned to clean the teachers room
we had so much fun inside
cos it was airconditioned la
then we stayed inside cos outside was hot
we spend the with our instructor
and we did a lot of cheers
there was also a photo graphy time
then it was time to say goodbye
however on the way back on the bus
we were still very enthu
and we kept singing the cheers
it was damn fun la
i can only use fun to describe this camp
CrazZii MoNkeY!!

2006-06-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

back from camp le
since jeslyn ask me update
so i update lor
haha
camp was extreme fun can!!
woots~!
simply love those seniors
they put in a lot of effort in this camp
and also need to thank miss lai
for sponsoring financially
ok
today band was ok
except that got scolding
for talking too much
-.-" hehe
for the first time..
today..
i felt
my stomach muscle
aching!!
yay!!
finally..
chunmeng say
play instrument should be stomach pain
not mouth muscle pain
haha..
sometimes i wonder if i have improved
in my skills..
ok nvm
next year is syf le..
less than a year from now
and some sec2s
still don't want to buck up
just one simple bar of the music
also cannot make it
cannot play
and this is not the first time
we play jericho
did you all really go practise?
don't try to find all kinds of excuses
to skip band practices
ya if you really got sth urgent
you can skip
but not all the time
in this stage
how are you suppose to make sure
the sec1s are good?
how are you suppose to make sure
they can become better
to match the band's standard?
how are you suppose to make sure
thay can join us for syf next year?
and if 'you' (shall not mention name)
have decided to stay
make sure you work hard
and contribute
not give more problems
and i don't wish to hear
you want to quit again
im not trying to
speak ill of anyone
if you feel offended
then i apologise
---------------------------------------------
this sat got performance at lakeside park
full band u (T.T)
hope that day don't rain lor
---------------------------------------------
can you stop all your nonsense??
and don't hurt my friend
you are just being too guo4 fen4
i don't wish to hate you!
..
``God bless..

2006-06-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

i am not happy at all`
what has become of me?!
had been quarrelling with mum again
and this time dad was involved too!
how can we get better?
maybe it can never happen
duh.
starting to lose faith in myself
totally depressed.
all i do is cry
God please save me!
get me out of this situation.
i am so tired..
hidden feelings that no one will know.
i only want to share it with you.
if possible my friends too.
but who??
sighs..
off to band camp
12-13 june
see you my friends
weE~

2006-06-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

band camp coming soon
not sure if i should be happy or what
>.<
argh
all the chiong pieces are so tough
especially invictus
all the running notes made me crazy
and the with love and voice too
chunmeng said its actually not difficult
only rhythm part
and that shall not say name
was scolded by jes today
shes just irresponsible
so much for that
anw check out this web
its funny
about Da Vinci Code - The Last Supper
http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html
truth is truth
false is false
believe in false
and you will be gone..
Jesus is God
born as man
died for us
and rosed again..
one truth. believe it.
weE~

2006-06-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

WARNING: BEWARE OF FLASHER
appeared outside our sch (fuhua sec)
~
he sounds like the pervert
who followed me brenda and jingwen
cos all the criteria matched those that jes mentioned
more info in fuhuaband blog
~~
the story goes like this:
last last sat, 27th may,
the day before performance at paya lebar
me brenda and jingwen went to jp after band
jingwen wanted to buy blue file
so we went to popular
then went we were at second floor escalator
jingwen saw a sec1 trombonist
she was showing her where that sec1 was
then got a guy behind us
looking and searching too
i thought he was weird
then we walked to near music junction there
he followed
when we stopped he stopped too
he was like acting and looking around
then we realised he was 'following' us
we quickly went to popular
we split up and went to the file section
then we so scared we don't dare to move
he walked towards us and hi -ed to brenda
the next moment we shoo!!
all ran to toilet!
then last thurs saw him
outside our sch after band practice
and yesterday too
and he showed jes his c***
i think he should be the guy
scary~ (>.<)
girls look out
don't walk alone near our sch..

2006-06-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

'only after the last tree has been cut
only after the last river has been poisoned
only after the last fish has caught
only then will you find that money cannot be eaten'
my sis wrote this
actually i quite agree with it
and shes genius to come up with this man
cos i wouldn't have
btw there will be a performance by us
at lakeside park
drums also going too
yays!
i love performance
anw next tues
06/o6/2oo6 omen..
going to commonwealth sec
for cluster band exchange
hope nothing bad happens
T.T
``i waited.

2006-05-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

im back!
performance was ok
though some problems cropped up
ok firstly
the 17 of us went to perform
at the starting point
there were so many ppl
they look like ants from afar
and the place was so big
yet they only allow so little ppl to perform
open field somemore
and no chairs >.<
after the performance
miss lai say very good
can hear very clearly
i was like 'huh?! are you sure?'
then mdm rafidah also said so
-.-"
then the performance with the whole band
the conductress' stand was left in the bus!
winnie ran back to get it
but we still had start without her
finally she came back in the middle
of our first song el relicario
then was cant take my eyes off you
little overture cum stand up for s'pore
was a tiring day
on the journey back to sch
i slept until jes woke me up
hoho it was raining heavily..
o.o
miss tan had some arguements with our school
and also mr teo!!
well done lor
is they say miss tan scold us
until very cham one
no wonder miss tan has been
quite good to us this few practices
-.-"
well done..

2006-05-20T21:19:00.000+08:00

if you have been tagged,
you are to come up with seven qualities
of your perfect lover.
do specify the gender.
then, list down and tag another seven bloggers on their pages.
if you've been tagged,
you need not do this again.
let's start.
gender:male
[1] love me for who i am
[2] taller than me and fit
[3] honest, caring and thoughtful
[4] believe me
[5] must not be easily jealous type
[6] not petty
[7] willing to share my problems
These are the next seven victims:
(names in alphabetical order)
[1] diona
[2] huiting
[3] shannon
[4] szeting
[5] tzuhsuan
[6] wanzi
[7] yanto
weE~

2006-05-18T21:03:00.000+08:00

now that midyear is over
im worried about my results!
i am dead meat man!
just hope i don't fail many papers
H
recently made up with laytheng
(*claps*) yay!
well didn't expect this to happen
really shocked and happy at the same time
I
well there will be a performance
for dunno what s'pore air forces thing
its at payar lebar (if i didn't spell wrongly)
we were invited by them
have to practise hard man
its on 28 may and we haven quite practised
10 more days
3 more practices!!
how are we going to perform in this stage?!
sure kena scolding from miss tan this sat
and she will say
'let unity go better ..unity.. unity...'
haha..
well done lor..
!
``practising in progress..

2006-05-13T12:56:00.000+08:00

life is not measured
by the number of breaths we take
but by the moments
that take our breath away.
laugh often.
indulge in the things you truely love
even when it seems hopeless.
There is always someone who loves you
more than you know.
it will get better.
give it your all
to love someone
with all of your heart.
hold onto good friends,
they are few and far between.
------------------------------------
mye is finally coming to an end
but the unhappiness still continues
when will they ever end??
god knows.
``still trying..

2006-05-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

when a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.
when a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.
when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.
when a girl answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.
when a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are lying.
when a girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
when a girl wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.
when a girl says "I love you",
she means it.
when a girl says "I miss you",
no one in this world can miss you more than that..

`` my conscience is clear,
but that does not make me innocent.
it is the Lord who judges me
- Corinthians 4:4

2006-04-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

Untitled - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes onAs
I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

`` incomplete [ 30% done ]

2006-04-29T18:34:00.000+08:00

you said you didn't say
it's all my fault
let me tell you this
i didn't say it's your fault either
can't you see the open inverted commas
i put for the enemy??
and in the last entry i posted
did i say anything about what you commented?
btw you are the one
who started writing all this in your blog
so why can't i write in my blog??
i didn't say you say i am in the wrong
but if you are not wrong
ppl will not think you are wrong lor
i am just expressing
cos you are not happy about me
so i said everything is my fault
and when did i say your class lan?
did you hear it with your own ears
or from anyone??
you meant you didn't assume
what you think to be true,
then how can you be so sure
that i was acting and faking?
didn't you assume that?
did you hear with your own ears
that i said those words too?
'dun assume what you think to be true'
shouldn't you be saying this to yourself too?
i didnt mean those from the not so good classes
are always in the wrong
'those from the not so good classes
are always in the wrong.
u guys are always correct.
we are the bad guys.
u are are good guys.
good guys always win against the bad guys.
since we are in the worst class.
everything is our fault.
we all must apologise to u right?'
this is what you assumed
isn't it?
so you will say its only an expression
right?
then why can't i express while you can?
-i have every rights to write whatever i want
and whatever i like (quoted from you)

``i know You will be always there

2006-04-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

whatever you want to say
i dun expect you to do anything
or 'forgive' me
now that you already treated me as your 'enemy'
whatever you want to comment about
i will not take it
and you dun have to accept my apology
i'm fine with it
everything is all my fault
all my problem lor
can?
dun wish to say harsh things
i dun see the point of being forgiven
since "i am in the wrong"
if you still want to think this way
and feel this way
so be it lor
what can i do??
- dun assume what you think to be true

``living for Him and myself..

2006-04-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

trapped in between..
nothing more to say.
what more do you want?!
seeking for advice..

have to stay faithful in Him no matter what
shall not have any more doubts.
thank You for all my supportive friends
i just pray that You would give me strength
and stay strong in You
i just pray everyone around me is fine..

``staying strong and firm in Him..

2006-04-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

last sat was fun!
woohoo~~
went to watch outdoor display bands
so called 'outdoor syf for military bands'??
anw went to meet them at je mrt station on sat
i thought i was going to be late
in the end i was the eariliest -.-
den weiquan came
i went to sit and he sat beside me
he was so pervertic can?! *shivers..*
ok so much about that
then also boonsiong came
and jes told me not to be late
in the end they were late! haha.. juz jk
then went to kallang
and we walked from the mrt station
to the stadium!! (so tired)
and the weather was damn hot
when we reached there we were so early
and i loved hwa chong so much!!
their moves and turns were sharp and beautiful
it seems like there are not even a tiny bit of flaw
onli that the drum major dropped the mace
not to left out tanjong katong, deyi and bowen
the top three bands
they were perfect!
wonder when can fuhua military band
be like them
mb by the time they decided to practise
marching and formation
i have already stepped down!
on the way back home crapped a lot
meng kui was so funny
(go jes blog for more details. haha.
http://lurveclarinet.blogspot.com)
it was raining and we walked about 30 minutes
under the rain till we reached the station
~wet~

argh!!
more problems more troubles!
why me?
why did he want to worry about me?!
why did he want to do this to me?
tell me that it's a joke.
save me!!

``You are my everything..

2006-04-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

Slow Tears

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

``i'll learn to stand upon Your word..

2006-04-20T21:26:00.001+08:00

hmm..
today had a change of sitting arrangement
we all like separated so far away from each other
so sadd.. hmmm..
cannot crap with tzuhsuan, diona and huiting le
nvm lor..

i feel like i am a useless person
that dun deserve to exist in this world
had quarrels with my mum and now my sis
shes younger than me and yet
she tried to lecture me
this is not the first time already
i failed as a daughter
i failed as a sister
i failed in everything of my life
had been crying these few days
but who can understand me??
who can listen to me and hear me talk?
i dun have the chance
i can say
i am just not as lucky as others
i guess so
blame it on my luck then..
- i am who i am and i cant change that
neither could you..

``i gave all that i am to You..

2006-04-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

band practice yesterday was bad
cos it wasn't very good -.-
in fact it was terrible!!
miss tan was so angry with us
she walked out during band practice yesterday
she said it is wasting time
and mr refat was there too!!

well well well..
when it comes to scolding
our section were always not left out;
miss tan were most unhappy with the 1st clarinet
or can i say the clarinet section? ?
well we have to practise hard then.
since the sec4s left
our band practice had been terrible
and now is exam break
how do we perform for 28 may like this??
or should we let unity perform for us like miss tan said?
no way!!
we will make it!
i believe someday we will make it
like the competition at genting
we will practise hard ya?!
fuhua military band jia you bah!!

am i the 1 in the wrong?
i feel like i am drifting further and further
away from my parents
my mum said i have talked to her lesser as time goes
she also said i always keep everything to myself
what must i do??
..sadd

`` You have saved me...

2006-04-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

well the cip today was quite boring
i thought i was going to be late today
in the end i reached there at about 6.45+
and not many had arrived
phew~
den things won't so sucessful
i was sort of said by someone
that i qiang3 zou3 her friend
i was wondering :that friend was already my friend
why do i need to qiang3??
say me give her attitide somemore
hello??
who was the 1 who started it?
ok fine
i keep quiet
but you still stare at me
what did i do wrong??
i talk to my friend and be with her got wrong?
nvm
but that time when we cross the road
you quickly push her and another friend in front
den say 'lets go'
are you doing it on purpose??
i dun know.
you yourself noe it well
not wanting me to be together with them?
we have been friends since sec1
im blogging this entry not to offend any1
just wanna let you noe
this is how i feel you.

hasn't been in good mood
quarrelled with my parents these few days
they just simply dun understand
i can only say we can't communicate

`` i can't explain how much you mean to me now..

2006-04-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

maybe it's fate
that it happen out this way
maybe it's time I forget it
like what szeting said
and face the truth and the future
i should care about my studies
and friends
and more important stuffs
ppl told me that I have made the right choice
so let it be this way
and i should not care about this anymore
I can only say lets remain as friends
but things nv always go in my way
there's always obstacles getting into my way
but
i'll put my focus on Him
i'll believe in Him no matter what
whether ppl hate me
or whatsoever
I will not care
i'll follow Him and stay faithful

so much for that
szeting was like so happy just now
hmm.. so secretive man..
haha.. lolls
i wonder.. :)
haiis..
tmr still got the cip thing at jurong spring cc
had to help out for residents' day
if im not wrong
oh my..
there goes my sunday..
flown away just like that for the cip thing
when I haven complete my hw
just hope that its fun not boring :)

`` it's You who gave me life..

2006-04-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

hmm..
today was forced to do counter
cos yiqi went for break
haiis
at first cannot cope cos so long nv do le
hehe
but as time goes on
i became better

woohoo~
later went to huiting's house
me and yiqi went to her house watch movie
'saw' and 'final destination'
at first i thought it was very scary
i sat so close to yiqi!
haha..
i must admit its gruesome man
blood blood blood
yeeeew!
we didnt noe what the story is about
even till the movie had ended
den we three watch until wanna slp
at about 6.45 went home
pei qi wait bus
then huiting accompanied me go buy food
talked so much on the way

i am so damn confused!!
what should i do??
i feel like it is the end of the world
ok really wished to be friends again
but what must i do to make this happenn?
ppl said that it will soon be ok as time goes on
i dun think so
dun wish to wait until the time when i give up
...wishing'

2006-04-13T23:02:00.001+08:00

posted this entry to tell everyone im still alive
this blog is not dead
maybe blog tmr cos today no time
to those out there
take care'
c ya!

lalala~

2006-04-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

L
went to mac today with yiqi.
haiis.. so long nv go out with her le..
we talked so much. :)
O
sigh.. life is nv fair.
why cant we be friends again??
when will this cold war end??
or should we remain like this till the last day of our lives?
really dun wished to lor.
V
what did he take me for?
start afresh?
how much do you understand about me?
if you love me, you wouldnt have done all this to me
meaningless life..
E

should i accept him??
once again??

MFEO x)

2006-04-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

time flies..
its time to say goodbye to the current sec4s.
time for them to leave,
time for us sec3s to lead.
happy memories doesn't last; sad memories last foreva

to jes : i'll miss you always
thats for sure
really enjoyed you being our sL
but i dunno why you say i'll hate you
haha.. i won't
i can say i am a person who gets angry
and forget it easily
it is not a happy thing that you are leaving
dun think that way
although a lot of times kena scolding from you
(and its always me. hmph.)
i know its because you care
if not you won't be angry
cos you will age faster haha...
erm.. just wanna wish you..
all the best for your 'O' level bah!!
to jazz : you have always been our wonderful senior
even when you teach the sec2s
you are really patient
you have a good temper
wo pei fu ni
(i wish i could learn this from you >.< )
when im sad you will talk to me
console me
to liping : best clarinetist in the Whole Wide World!
haha..
just 1 advice for you:
in order to succeed in life,
you need to control your temper and emotions
when ms tan scold you just take it and forget it
i know it is hard but..ya..
you have to take it..

i am thinking how are we going to handle the section
w/o you three around
of course i know shitian and amanda
are going to make great sectional leaders
haiis
really enjoyed the times we spent together
as a band!
2005 syf.. outdoor performances..
genting internatinal band compeition..
all the good and bad times together..
really misses those times man..

haiis
clarinet section.. jiayou bah!!

2006-03-10T21:27:00.000+08:00

i admit i wrong can?

i did say but i din mean it.

if i really look down on you i would not have been friends with you.

you already say so much things back about me le

what more do you want me to do?

i did not look on your class or you.

that was what you think.

me looking down on your class and you.

you say this is not the first time i suan you.

then you tell me what did i suan you about?

dont tell me you nv suan ppl before.

if you are really a friend of mine, you would not have not trusted me.

you can ask yiqi and huiting to patch

and say "its better to have a friend rather than an enemy".

but why can't you let me have a chance to explain?

you nv asked qing chu then dui wo fan lian.

ok lah. you angry with me is fine

but i thought friends will try their very best

to save their friendship and continue their friendship?

isn't friendship about forgive and forget??

and trusting each other??

if your friend suddenly come to your class

den gen ni fan lian won't you be unhappy?

i cry you say i acting 'ke lian'

i nv cry also wrong

i do anything you also got thing to say

i really dunno what to do

and i did not say 'okay uh. i have insulted u.

im so sorry. can u forgive me?'

i dunno who you heard all this things from

but i know you would not believe whatever i say now

and find it stupid.

if i really offended you, i apologise.

if you dun wanna accept i also cannot force you

the choice is yours.

i just wish everything could be the same

...like before.

2006-02-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

today is valentine's day..
a day for friends, lovers, couples...
today i received a gift from jeslyn
and a choco from wanzi
jes gave 2 choco bars and marshmellow
wanzi gave ferrero rocher
then after sch yiqi
accompanied me to jp to collect my bag.
we saw lots of couples there. cannot stand it.
its just so many lor..
then yiqi say i and her also a pair ( -.-")

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i am so tired of living lor.

everyday go sch is study.
is this what life is all about??
studies and exams?
why can't it be friends and families?
why things always seem to go wrong for me?
what have i done wrong?
i am such a failure.. no matter in whatever things..
failure being a friend, in studies and even in a relationship.
why must wonderful memories disappear just like that?
dying on valentine's day is not a bad idea..

my life is like so hopeless lor..
why did he leave me?
he seemed so far..
even when we were together..
can't i have the right to choose and decide?
he never made me happy.
he always made me sad.
can't he be more serious??
what can i do?
i can't force him.
all i want is to be with him..
that's all..

2006-02-07T21:41:00.001+08:00

life is just so unfair.
i am so troubled with life.
life is meaningless.
first is my parents. they are just so bias lor.
only care for my sister.
just because she is better than me in studies?
which means why she can get ipod nano
and all the stuffs she want on her bdae?
is this fair?
and if anything go wrong they scold me.
what can i do. they are my parents.
and nowadays my studies is becoming from bad to worse lor.
dunno whats happening to me.
haiss...
why must he do this to me??
since that day i had tried to forget about him.
but when i almost forget about him he msg me again.
i just can't get him out of my mind.
today he told me that he still like me and care about me
and that my life is not meaningless cos i still have him.
what should i do??
why can't i have a peaceful life?
everything seems to go wrong.
maybe this is my life lor..
and that i should try to accept it.
here i am.. once again in tears...

2006-01-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

today band so so lor..

kena scolding from ms tan again.

we had sectionals from 3.30 to 5.30

cos ms tan was with sec 1s. so sian lor.

then shitian clarinet was knocked down by someone.

when i told her she was shocked

and said she wanted to scold that person.

i just hope that her clar is ok lor.

then that jiajun ar go dunno what robotics thing.

he's driving me crazy lor.

shou bu liao him.

haiss.

now the current strength for the clar section is 22

if i am not wrong.

a lot sia.

anyway yesterday my mum dragged me to jp to buy clothes.

when i haven finish my hw!

so bad.

then yesterday i 12 den sleep

just to finish my hw.

but i bought a lot of clothes yesterday.

i think got $100+ leh.

i bought a baleno long pants about $30 like that.

then went to op buy a shirt and skirt.

the shirt $28 and skirt $36.

but got 20% discount.

hehs.

then later went to triangle

bought a shirt with a CAT on it.

so cute lor! (^.^)v

cost $19.90.

saw that shirt at yellow too.

by the way chinese new year is coming in 3 days.

wish every1 a prosperous chinese new year!

2006-01-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

hehs.. today no hw so happy..(^.^)v

today did a maths ma1. i sure fail. die le.

den also selected by mr chia for a maths remedial this thursday.

so "lucky" man.

anyway i change instrument le.

last friday change 1.

shitian also change and she cried cos she bu she de

her clarinet.

now jiajun is using her clarinet

and she said she's going to kill him if anything happen to it.

(so scared..)

yesterday band practice mdm oen treat us band for

doing well in genting.

so much food lor. lucky got sec 1s help us finish the food.

got sushi, chicken pie, fruit tart...

all so nice.. yummy..

then some were watching the slides of pics of us in genting.

all the happy memories that we cannot get back..

its so sad.

den jes watch until cry. she say bu she de us.

i hope she can be our beloved sectional leader foreva!!! :)

after eating we went in to the ava room and played festa.

ms tan said its nice although we long time never play this song le.

thats quite about it lor.

yeah tmr got sectional!! *happy*

all the best to me..

just hope that every1 around me is happy.

and that all problems can be solved without quarreling..

haiss..

2006-01-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

it's been busy all this days.
thats why so long never update blog. :p
it's only the second week of sch and its so busy already.
i cant imagine what it would be like later on.
today in band, the sec 1s came. about 20 i think. the rest haven come.

we played sock hop for them. again.

then played ABBA GOLD and el relicario.

it was still quite ok cos this was the second time reading ABBA GOLD.

after that played jap 4 .

i only played b4 the first half page only, the rest is sight read 1.

and we ended the day with oregon.

i also played b4 the first page only, but heard b4 the song

so still can manage lor.

after hearing what people had said, i realised that the GOLD we got

in genting was nothing.

we played festa and s'pore rap for 1 year le

cos surely get GOLD.

as for shuqun they only missed GOLD by 0.5%.

but they sent the sec 1s for competition too and they are good.

i am not critising our band and i know that we improved a lot too.

we have the tone. golden tone.

but we still have a long way to go.

stopping here.. tmr still got sch.. nitez..

2005-12-29T21:19:00.000+08:00

nothing much today..

went to clementi mac to do some hw with huiting and yiqi.

we dunno how to do lor then later go ask ai chuin

and she teach us chemistry.

she pro can. (^.^)v

then went to arcade play. we were so crazy lor.

den i left earlier cause so sian.

this entry is actually 4 tuesday bbq.

it was fun. when i reach there with grace, it started to rain.

so heavily. many has already reached and they started bbq-ing already.

it rained so the fire was put out.

then about 10 minutes the rain stopped. we started the fire again.

then dunno what happened then it started to rain not long after.

we tried to save the fire by covering the top with a garbage bag.

we also used umbrellas too.

but the rain still defeated us.

then huiting called and grace went to pick her up.

the weather was so strange.

not long after it rained again. -.-"

i dunno if we were lousy or what the fire just wont start.

we used 1 hour + still cannot start.

while the other pit is enjoying themselves.

we were so pathetic.

worse come to worse.. we burn tissues, paper plate and paper cups

to produce fire and we bbqed sting ray.

on our side there were only jes, grace, tong, jazz, small natalie

and i 4got liao. -.-"

while the other side were enjoying we were suffering

and they didnt even give us some food.

never mind.

but small natalie went over and brought back some food for us

but she herself didnt eat. poor thing..

now i finally realise why our band is so not united.

when people say we were not united in the past,

i didnt believe. now i understand why.

ppl only think for themselves. (not all lah. dont feel offended)

then went to look 4 huiting she talking on the phone

and talk until no batt den need to borrow my phone. sigh..

it wasnt a very good day 4 me lor.

i want to feel better Lord.

i know that in each day there is always something that You have

planned for me to learn.

i know my future is in Your hands, so i will not worry.

i just leave my worries and burden to You

and let you guide me day by day.

Thank You Lord.

In Jesus Name I pray,

Amen.

2005-12-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

nothing much todae. until now i still cant accept what he told me last sat. i just feel like hiding in a corner and cry. i am totally depressed. he said he liked me and wanted to be with me. now he just want to be friends. is this all a lie or just a dream?? he was the 1 who started this relationship and he was also the 1 who ended the relationship. it is just too sudden i am thinking did he really like me or is he just.. i dunno what to say.
what did he take me for? why are all guys like that? they always break we girls heart..
but just want to tell yiqi to stay happy and dont give up on the relationship cos i believe he like you a lot.. and sorry for making you cry on monday. (>.<)

2005-12-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

>> brokenn hearted..

he left me wif a brokenn heart.. i dun need any help coz it soon will be over.. the unexpected has already happen so dun bother.. and its better to let it happen so i wont need to live suffering.. and i wont need to cry anymore.. but let me tell you this i may be easygoing but i am not a toy 4 you to play around with.. i have feelings too.. mah feelings can be hurt by love.. *sobs*

2005-12-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

>> International Band Competition at Genting `o5
so long never update liao.. first i want to say we got GOLD 4 the band competition at genting highlands. GOLD leh.. i was wondering are we really that good or what. but over all the trip was great and i had fun at the theme park!!

2005-10-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

sigh..exams finally over..the worst nightmare has just passed..todae we went to the birdpark. it was damn fun. Actually we went there for a maths trail, but we didnt care we did it anyhow coz its so easy and some copy from others.
After the trail we wandered in the park..the best place i like is the penguin exhibit and the owl one. The penguins there are soo damn cutee`!! ;) feel like huggin` one home..it was so BEAUTIFUL..but we saw 1 penguin with BROWN thick fur and it was soo fat!! it was the baby king penguin and its brown fur (which are called 'down feathers') would fall off after 10-13 months. it walked until like got difficulty in walking coz of its size. i was afraid it might tumble and ROLL down into the water! :)
The owl were not cutee` like the penguins..they were serious and fierce too. in the owl exhibit, it was dark and cold. it was quite scary as euu would be shocked if euu suddenly saw the owls as they dont move and stare at euu.
when we were ready to go back to school, all the classes were so KIASU they were all fighting for the buses with air-con and also want high class buses. In the end my class was the last to leave the birdpark and we got a quite high class bus.
+Signing off+

2005-10-07T08:26:00.000+08:00

Sigh..exams are coming..so sian..haven started studying yet. Monday is geography. So called one of my WORSE subject. More nightmares coming aHEAD next week..

2005-10-06T12:52:00.000+08:00

i'm so stressed up!! Tired of living!! What have i done wrong?? First is my mum, then my frends! What the hell is going on!